If it was a God given vision and I committed my work to Him, why did He let it die?
First of all, I told you about how God had warned me to seek support from other Christians. So in part I simply blame the devil. He inspired the sin that entered our church. I can’t say in the natural that it killed the business. However if it was important enough for God to warn about, and then later withdraw blessing from the project, it has something to with it.
My fault
But most blame I put on myself. I was responsible. And I did many mistakes. I also was not fit for the position I had. I communicated this on a number of occasions. However with no funds, it’s not easy to replace the manager.
So bottom line is that it was my fault. I disobeyed God when I failed to seek support elsewhere.
Broken for a reason
One evening this summer I prayed out my heart to God: “Why do everything I try to do, fail? Even when it’s you I do it for? Even when it’s your vision? Why is there a broken piece in my that screw things up?”
The answer came back:
“Yes, my beloved! As you now understand, you do have a broken piece in you. I created you exactly like that. I put that brokenness into you. That brokenness is the very reason I can use you. Because my purpose for you is to live close to me, always, 24/7. And the brokenness makes you dependent on that intimacy with Me. You are not you. You = Me + you.”
Wooooow! I broke down and I cried, because suddenly I understood that after all, there was a purpose to both my past failures and my brokenness. And even if the Christian company died in that bankruptcy, my purpose in God did not.
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Dear Christian Businessman,
I think of Solomon and King David when I read your story. Both Men of God. Both still imperfect and both made mistakes. Solomon allowed his wives to erect idols. King David let Lust rule his life. Solomon’s kingdom fell into ruin after his death. King David never built the temple he wanted to for God. Through their experiences it shows all of us even if we are smart like Solomon or spiritually close to God like King David we can get things wrong. When God came down to clarify his message and statisfy the price of sin for all of us forever he went into the Temple and overturned the money changers tables. Revival comes with knees on the floor and prayer and fasting. It will start the fire. When people hunger and thirst they will come to have it quenched. You will not have to raise funds or open businesses to support a church. Seek God first and everything else will come. If every home is a church and everything you do whether a job or favor is unto God there will be a revival in your land that will not be contained. I will be praying for you’re countries and you.
Awesome! When we come to that place it is so releasing. I’m so glad you got there too. Praise God!
Hi Gay Lynne,
Thank you for your comment and your prayers. It’s fantastic when we can reach out for eachother like that, no matter where we are on earth.
For me it was not about starting a business and thoughts of how we could bless the church with resources, but trying to follow Jesus and follow his directions. So what then when it fails? Or perhaps such failure is in human context, not heavenly?
Bless you!