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If it was a God given vision and I committed my work to Him, why did He let it die?

First of all, I told you about how God had warned me to seek support from other Christians. So in part I simply blame the devil. He inspired the sin that entered our church. I can’t say in the natural that it killed the business. However if it was important enough for God to warn about, and then later withdraw blessing from the project, it has something to with it.

My fault

But most blame I put on myself. I was responsible. And I did many mistakes. I also was not fit for the position I had. I communicated this on a number of occasions. However with no funds, it’s not easy to replace the manager.

So bottom line is that it was my fault. I disobeyed God when I failed to seek support elsewhere.

Broken for a reason

One evening this summer I prayed out my heart to God: “Why do everything I try to do, fail? Even when it’s you I do it for? Even when it’s your vision? Why is there a broken piece in my that screw things up?”

The answer came back:

“Yes, my beloved! As you now understand, you do have a broken piece in you. I created you exactly like that. I put that brokenness into you. That brokenness is the very reason I can use you. Because my purpose for you is to live close to me, always, 24/7. And the brokenness makes you dependent on that intimacy with Me. You are not you. You = Me + you.”

Wooooow! I broke down and I cried, because suddenly I understood that after all, there was a purpose to both my past failures and my brokenness. And even if the Christian company died in that bankruptcy, my purpose in God did not.